Scattered Thoughts and Bedtime
My hotel room is evidence of my thoughts being scattered a bit this week. The pinstripe jacket to the suit from yesterday is resting on the back of the desk chair and the suit I wore today is carelessly tossed across the back of the easy chair next to my bed. My bra is hanging on the door to the armoire. There is one pair of shoes by the door and another pair of shoes by the window. I am in disarray.
I am also incredibly tired, but because the day was much too intense and busy, I am exhausted but not sleepy. I had one of those days, days where an eighteen-hour bra would have failed. I was up at 5:30, out of the hotel by 7:15 AM and not back until after 7 PM. Starved, I finally had dinner about 8 PM. As far as the not sleepy part, in the past, I would have turned to a glass of wine (or two) to get me buzzed enough to be sleepy, but in all honesty, I have no desire to wake with a wine headache and I do have another full day tomorrow.
At dinner, though, I did have a cocktail. A perfectly blended, perfectly chilled oh-please-may-I-savor-you White Knight: “Vodka, Cointreau, White Cranberries and crushed Limes together to form a more perfect union”. I wanted a second because it was just so incredibly yummy, but was afraid I’d fall asleep at the table.
I want to remember that tonight I talked to Scout, who is an old-flame/client of sorts who, after more than a year of not “seeing each other in that way” had sent me a text the other night telling me he’d like to see me because he misses me. We had dinner a several months back (June?) and we talked. I think what he misses is talking to me because in so many ways, I am non-judgmental. Not quote sure about this, but I can guarantee you that it will not end with what he may hope. I am more than willing to have dinner with him, but he needs to understand that it doesn’t go beyond the hotel lobby.
I also talked to The Major this afternoon. I have forgotten how to date. We are working on dinner tomorrow night so that we can see each other before I go back home.
I really must turn off the lights. Please forgive the rambles as it is where I am tonight with my scattered thoughts when I should be sleeping.
- 29 Aug 2008
- Category: Leaving On a Jet Plane, Love Life, Night, Songs About Me
- Author: Paula
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