http://paulatracey.com A Tarnished Southern Belle Fri, 02 Jan 2009 04:45:52 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en Well, I got on the scales for the first time since before Christmas.  191.  Wow, heaviest I have been, except when pregnant.  I will never be a waife, however, I do need to weigh less than that.  Honestly, I am good somewhere between 155 and 165 since I have huge ... http://paulatracey.com/the-shape-of-things/ I'm frustrated when it comes to relationships with men.    There are all these mixed signals about what they want....and am debating about just taking a break from even trying.  When I mentioned that to a guy I correspond with, he laughed and suggested I could trythe other team, and of ... http://paulatracey.com/on-relationships/ After a stressful week with travel and work, I came home to deal with the stress of taking the oldest to the psychiatrist.  His recommendation is to pull her out of school, but not do a GED. In research, I have found alternative ways for her to get her high school ... http://paulatracey.com/the-morning-after/ The oldest child asked me if I would home school her last night.  She has been asking for the last year or so, but last night she was finally able to make her case in a way that I understood.  She is struggling to function at school - not because ... http://paulatracey.com/of-parenting-and-other-vagaries-in-life/ There is a pile of laundry next to me on the bed, but to be honest, I'm trying to pretend it isn't there.  I know that doesn't get it done, and procrastination is not always the best thing in the word to do, but I am.  Procrastinating.  Because today is ... http://paulatracey.com/of-avoiding-laundry/ The eighty-give hour week really did a number on me.  I still feel as if I haven't caught up on my sleep yet!  And that's pretty damned pathetic - or is it that I am getting old? I was in the habit of writing regularly - and for a change being ... http://paulatracey.com/of-80-hour-weeks-and-breaks/ It took a long time, but after trying to make things work out with “The Boy”, I finally realized that the issue of our relationship wasn’t me. It was him. (yes, I know it takes two.  I know it isn't all him.  But I finally realized that it wasn't ... http://paulatracey.com/perspective-and-contrast/ I realized today that I have been living a life much too vanilla for me. http://paulatracey.com/a-vanilla-life/ Work is exahusting me. that is all. http://paulatracey.com/just-wanted-to-say/ Last night was the full moon and I was feeling the affects before and after... Emotional, moody, etc. I've not reached a full conclusion about The Boy other than I think it's time to move on.  It's hard because I love him, but I am worth more than this.  I need ... http://paulatracey.com/full-moon-effects/